Wine, Cake and Love

My Nana always told me:

“You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching, Love like you'll never be hurt, Sing like there's nobody listening, And live like it's heaven on earth.”

Today is one of those days that you want to be happy because birthdays are happy but you can't help but feel sad when you know the birthday you could be celebrating won't happen because the person isn't with you anymore. 

Today my Nana would be 80 years old. There is still a moment everyday where I can't believe that she isn't here anymore.  Sometimes I will see something and think "my Nana would love that" or just want to curl up in her bed with her and tell her about my awful day at work, or the exciting things that happened over the weekend. 

When she first passed away I didn't want to forget the sound of her voice, that was what I feared the most.  It has been two years, and I can't necessarily remember exactly what it sounds like anymore, but I will never forget her touch.  She was one of those people that could touch you with a hand, and you could feel it in your soul.  Her hands, although they were 78 years old, were the softest I have ever felt. She cared and loved so much those who were important to her.  I hope that I have at least half the amount of room in my heart to love as she did.

Tonight we are going to celebrate her birthday with a glass of wine, a piece of cake and love. Just because she isn't here with us anymore doesn't mean that she would want us to be sad. She is looking down over us, wanting us to love as hard as we can.